Sunday, June 30, 2013

Bummer Dude

I said I would try to update regular so here ya go...
LN is enjoying Spain.
They are at the tournament site in San Sebastian and she says it's beautiful.
She is over feeling sick so is enjoying herself .
I am plugging away here with animals, heat and humidity.
I am going through my mid-life crisis and don't wanna explain much more.
I need to figure out how much I have left.
My limit is approaching.
Yes it takes work but at the cost of my happiness and sanity?
I wonder.
I turned the big 50 on a few weeks ago.
Of my family, my sister called, R & Z texted me as I was in NC with LN at soccer camp.
No one else acknowledged it.
That says something about my worth to people.
I don't want pity , I'm stating a fact.
It puts things into perspective.
Am I invisible?
If so I should be happy alone, correct?
I do prefer solitude and quiet.
I don't have it.
I have a lot of can you... and will you... thrown at me each day.
Is that all I am to you?
I wonder.


  1. You're a beautiful, strong, giving, full of life woman. Hugs to you, m'dear!

    1. I'm trying not to live my personal issues on here but I had to relieve the pressure a bit. Thanks for your support MamaPea.