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Thursday, February 13, 2014

Can't do this

I literally am typing this with my phone laying on a ewes back while holding her so her remaining lamb can nurse. 
My view ...
At 6 am while it's snowing and freezing rain no calf or labor was showing. At 7:30 calf born into rain snow mix . Big bull calf barely alive, freezing cold and mom not interested in him. S and I bring both into the barn and I tried to revive calf. Still no interest from mom but quick sniff and lick. She s disoriented since she never comes into barn yet alone a stall. I rub the hell out of him and smack him around a little. He moos softly and lifts his head. I keep it up and get mom to lick some more so I oh get a flake of hay. I'm gone 2 min and come back to him dead. I tried a few more minutes but ...
Mom must have known something cause she's at peace. I'm not. 
It started out a good birthing year and has gone to hell real fast.
Hence why to make myself feel better that I couldn't save the calf I'm holding this bitch of a mother and forcing her to let her remaining lamb nurse . 
Hope everyone else has a better day.
I'm over this ...
I never considered myself a softie but days like this I'm crying my eyes out and don't care what it makes me.


4 comments:

  1. You're just a very human, good woman, Lisa. Sometimes it's not even the particular "happening" that brings on the waterworks for me. (Your crummy weather probably isn't helping your situation much either.) They say letting yourself cry is a release. And I have to admit I usually feel better afterwards.

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    1. I know the way it is MamaPea but still cant handle this. I'm feeling overwhelmed and will get over it. The season started out so good and then wham right in the face over and over again. Thanks for the support.

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  2. Oh Lisa, I'm so sorry! It is never easy to lose the babies and crying about it makes you very human. I hope the mama sheep comes around with her lamb. {{BIG HUGS}}

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    1. Thanks Candy C. I guess you understand very well. The ewe who is being a butt about nursing her surviving lamb also stepped on the other one and it died so she's out of here as soon as he's weaned. Her genetics and mothering skills suck. The sick ewe is coming around but had a single lamb who died as she got sick. I don't know why but suspect infection transferred through milk.

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