Yesterday was such a good day.
A few hours later and today bites a big one as they say.
I feel like a complete failure as a Mom.
I lost it bad on LN this morning.
She woke up saying her stomach hurt and she felt like vomiting or passing out.
She was just panicking and having anxiety over 2nd day of field hockey tryouts.
I know she didn't sleep well because of them the last 2 nights she told me.
She said yesterday that the 1st day went great, she was happy with her performance, she was excited for day 2.
WTH and WTF (forgive me)
She woke up in tears and choking sobs.
I lost it I admit.
I tried to be sweet and ask her to describe her feelings.
I got her a cold washcloth to calm her down and wipe her tears way.
I walked away.
I stayed home for the 2nd day in a row from gym for her.
I packed her lunch.
I lost it... I got a belt
I did not use it but I so wanted to.
She finally upon threat got ready and I took her to tryouts.
She knew she was just upset.
She's only 14.
That's a kid still.
O M G
I sucked today as a parent.
I'm still 5 hours later upset.
I wanna throw up now.
I'm not posting for comments or sympathy.
I know what happened, why and how.
I just needed to vent.
I swear I'm losing my mind.